If It's Going To Happen

...it will happen. 


remember how i blogged about my upcoming Korea trip this May? 
well if you do, you may now scrap it out of your memory because I am not going there anymore. 


why? 
the reason is so simple. MY VISA APPLICATION GOT DENIED. 


i don't know why but i just feel sad about it. 
for one, i already have my plane ticket. i know i shouldn't have booked for one but because of the seat sales that occured,(and it really does come, one in a million), i grabbed the opportunity since i know some people who had their tickets and no visa yet. so basically, i was hoping that our fate, would be like them. But, for some reasons, I know that God has better plans for me so that's why I think this happened. 


Honestly, I don't blame myself for immediately buying the tickets because that 3 tickets that I bought were 75% cheaper than the original price of the ticket. What bothers me is that a DENIAL of VISA could imply a bad record? On what account? I hope nothing happens like that. Maybe the papers that we submitted (even though they are complete) are not enough to please those officials there. 


I know that He has bigger plans for me. I hope I could realize it soon. :D

ANNOUNCEMENT

I have to take note of this day for I have reached my final decision. (i sound super serious, what the hell) 


So basically, if ever my visa gets approved (OF COURSE IT WILL, THINK POSITIVE!), I am just a step away from Korea. A day after I arrive, the most epic DREAM CONCERT is going to happen. As a matter of fact, this Dream Concert, I feel like this would give me what I want. CONTENTMENT. I have been into this kind of fandom for 2 years (or less) and I feel like as long as I get attached to this kind of things, my life would never get so straight for I spend so much time on Naver, Youtube and other fangirl-ing sites.  


Now, if ever my prayers are heard, I would be seeing 2010's Dream Concert. I've got a 2-day, 2-night stay in South Korea and I don't care whether I line up just to get a ticket. I just need to see these idols and then i would call it QUITS (by calling it QUITS, I mean it would be a WIN-WIN Situation) . 


If I would get to see the 2010 Dream Concert, I would: 
- limit my fangirl life to dramas and music. 
- only 1 variety show / year. 
- I would like to fangirl from afar. It's good to be not updated sometimes. 


... so much for my frustration. i would like to end here. 
till next update. :D 

The Diary of a Crazed Fangirl

April 10, 2010 


I was never expecting this to happen for I accepted the fact that I won't be seeing them in person. (till I watch 2010 Dream Concert, HOPEFULLY. Don't keep your hopes up Carmel). But still, I believe God loves me so much that even though I keep my fangirl life 'hiatus', He would still make a way to make me a happy human being. 


I am not a big fan of Super Junior, until Sorry, Sorry and It's You. The Super Junior that I knew, were never singers. They are products of variety shows...until Sorry, Sorry and It's You (yes).But still, I tried to get to know them, and yes, before April 10, 2010 came, I knew ALL 13 of them plus Henry and Zhou Mi (which I never expected to see in person!) And the rest was history.....


My mind is kind of processing everything that happened. It's kind of processing that I saw Choi Siwon, Donghae, and Henry, in person...that they passed in front of me...that it did really happen (do i sound like crazy here?). I'm sorry I can't tell you everything yet. But yes I will...together with the photos and fancams of mine. 


So that's it everyone. I don't know to end this blog so I just might leave it hanging right there. 


Till next update. ♥

Cuuuuuraaaazhyyyy

it's really hot here in the Philippines, so a haircut is a must. 
the hairstylist seems to be in a hurry (i don't know whyyy~~) so i just pointed a style which looks good. i'm doing this because i love 개인 and 강지영 this much. lol 


ps. let my hair grow faster, it seems like i have to iron it everyday. TT.TT

April Fool's!

first of all, this is not a joke. hahaha. by the way, HAPPY APRIL FOOL's! 
(whyyyy am i greeting everyone, it's supposed to be Maundy Thursday! T.T)


okay to start off, i would want to vent out my worries because of my grades! 
i am not a dean's lister  (i really want to be one, it's just that, my efforts won't pay off) but it doesn't mean i should be complacent because of my mediocre grades. so how do i explain to my father that majority of my grades are 2.25? 


anyway......
on the brighter side, summer has official began and i am a partially incoming 3rd year student (think positive!)
this summer, i would want to improve on my korean because my korean sucks. haha. i remember that u-kiss moment, it was just so...FAIL. plus, i'll have my visa (together with my mom, sister and hopefully, Dors and Char) processed (probably)next week. please pray that our visas would be granted ('cause i have my tickets now and i have made plans for that trip). 화이팅!! 


also this summer, i would want to watch a lot of movies and series but the internet wouldn't just allow me! lately it has been so slow and a 200Mb file just takes an hour or two to be downloaded! TT.TT and what's worst is that my brother destroyed my laptop and i haven't told my dad about it (expect the nagging and 'what should i do' here). 


aside from GLEE!, which comes back on the 13th (YEAAAYY!), i still have many many overdue korean series (which includes the newest dramas that premiered a while ago!!!) to watch and a lot of western movies to catch! (i'm so poor, i can't even watch them on the movie house!). 


aside from facing the computer 24/7 (which i am probably doing the past few days), i still expect a summer full of fun memories as i see my choirmates next week(hopefully, i miss them soooo much), get a new haircut (and dye my hair?), meet again my blockmates (someday this summer :D), my explore Seoul in 42 hrs or less escapade and last but not the least, get to see ______ (haha. and be introduced to them personally!)


there you go. it has been a long blog. 


till next update! 


카르멜♥